I'll soon be 17 years old.
I haven't cut for over 2 years.
Literally months after I was born my family got a puppy..
this puppy grew up with me and he was my best friend..
there are so many pictures around the house of me and him..
but he died when I was 5 years old..
Today when I came home from school my parents told me that my dogs ran away..
so for hours me and my dad were driving around looking for my dogs..
and I happened to say something about my [earlier mentioned] dog dying
and since he only lived to be 5 years old and so did the dog I got after that..
I kinda figured, some types of dogs just don't like that long..
and we're had the one dog for about 3 years.. and we got him from someone who had him for a couple years..
and so I figured maybe he's just ready to die.. and you know.. some animals go away from home to die..
and I had said that to my dad.. and he looked at me weird and I mentioned that my first dog had only lived for 5 years..
and he told me that my neighbors poisoned my dog..
I was 5 years old..
I grew up with that dog..
he was my best friend..
what ind of sick person does that?
i remember my dog laying on the kitchen floor
on my baby blanket puking and I remember trying to feed him
and I remember trying to cover him up
and worst of all I remember watching him die..
and now to know that someone did that on purpose..
I'm seriously so upset about this..
me and that dog were best friends.
I just wanted to get that off my chest because
I've had way too much stress today..
and I just needed somewhere to vent so that
I didn't do something stupid.